June 2010
7 posts
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つくってまった
２個目だけどな。
FUCK MY LIFE
悲しくないけど悲しいけど。
仕事で病んだら解決策なんていくらでもあると思ったけど
そうじゃないかも。
でも遊んでくれる連れがたくさんいるってわかって
まだ救われた
捨てられたわけじゃないと思えた。（笑）
then i just gotta get high n work hardですな。
ウサギさんになりたいお
どこかに消えて飛んでっちゃいたい
でももう戻れない
working as a girl
”男女平等とかクソじゃね？女には女の利点があって
男には男の利点があんだよ
だからどっちに生まれてもadvantageさえ取れれば
文句なんてないし
むしろ取れない人間が男女平等なんて言うんだ”
と思ってたけど、仕事してると男にしかさせてもらえない仕事があって
それが悔しくて仕方なくなるんだけど
実際やってみるとあたしじゃ無理じゃんｗってなることがある
くそ、女の利点って何だ。
探さなくちゃ。探さなくちゃ。これ以上同期に距離を離されたくないし。
でも仕事上で女であることの利点とか見つからないし。
枕営業とかないし。笑
damn it.
our sweet memories
do you remember when we got together?
and do you remember we had our blog to whisper our feelings?
i just found one that you wrote and
it just made me cry
i loved you and you loved me
(or probably you still love me?)
傷付けてごめんね
あの頃のような
純粋な女にはもう戻れないの
November 2009
8 posts
October 2009
20 posts
Its done.
say goodbye to this. its not gonna be same anymore.
its not.anymore.
Gnight I’m goin to bed
a love has ended
today one love has ended
he was not that serious about her
even though she was really into him
when i listened her story
i was thinking of you
what if you werent that serious
and i was like “well no, never”
and i realized how happy i am
being said i like you by someone who i love
it is the happiest thing on the earth isnt it?
then i started regretting being unreachable to...
unreachable is me
the one who was unreachable was me
I guess i made you mad at me
if we don’t have any communication through the internet
our relationship will fade away
it sucks but it’s our reality
so i am sorry
living without you and hanging out with friends while thinking of you
just makes me miss you more
you know that, you know how it feels
so much stuff to tell you
i miss you
ソラニン
僕は死ぬことなんて怖くないと思ってた。 …いや、誰だって死ぬこと自体は怖くなんてないんだ。 自分の痛みも苦しみも一瞬のことさ。 僕が本当に苦しいのは、真っ暗な銀河の果ての果てから想う、 君の泣いてる姿。 …ごめんよ。 お願いだからそんな顔しないで。 君は笑った顔が一番かわいいんだから。 ―――ソラニン
i didnt think dying was scary. well, nobody might be scared to die your pains, concerns, sufferings are just temporary.
what makes me really upset is just watching you crying from the end of the galaxy
i am sorry, dont...
nick i need to be with you
Nothing can fill my emptiness i just need to be with you now, here, at the same place on the earth.
my dream will come true if i choose a life with you.
we will go traveling, living somewhere in this world, having a baby
my life will be complited with you.
how about you?
being with me can make your life happier?
i am missing you
how often do you check this tumblr?
Let me know as soon as you read this post. jk
babe i miss you
even though we have this crazy silly distance
i think of you, care about you, love you
how about you?
Writing is cutting yourself into words
To me writing is cutting myself w pain cuz the sensitivity is killin me.
どうでもいいけどおなかすいたなーー
卒論書かなくちゃ。
にゃー
やっぱりあたしは恋愛至上主義人間だと思った。
そんな自分が５０％嫌いで５０%好きだ。
やっぱ人生２倍楽しんでるかもしれない。
September 2009
20 posts
"i wonder if you ever think of me"
どうしてそんなことをしたの？
ものごとはそんなことばだけでかたづけられない。
and finally
i felt i am not the person who you are looking for.
its gonna friggin KILL me
why the hell couldn’t you just shut up? you knew that it was KILLING me.
but now, i just regret what i have said to you. I should not have acted like that.. argument is not trying to beat someone else.
then should i go facing with reality? should i look back and try to find solution? am i still escaping from the past?
i am scared to go back to the past. what is gonna happen? i don’t...
春--haru
my first boyfriend called me 春 my second boyfriend called me differently (hell yeah it was actually the college guy) my third boyfriend called me 春, too.
i used to hate my name “spring scent” cuz i was not like the person who had “spring scent”
but being called as haru, means spring by someone who i love.. it sort of…makes me happy.
but being called by you does not...
Sensitivity
Sensitivities are called hurts in the end. Sharing eventually leads to doubt. Getting closer exposes my self to unimaginable happiness and fear.
damn i was so right
its not that simple
the reason why i got jealous? it isnt that simple, the problem is still here.
if you say “everything has meanings and roots” then i guess i am too lazy to figure them out how can you analyze everything and list them up?
things arent that simple. im not hiding, but i am rather getting confused.
if you died
id rather eat your bones so that you would live inside of me
G O
let go
up and down, but down down down.
well then i should go studying huh.